Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Itchy

You know that feeling of wanting something, and wanting it now, now, NOW? That unscratchable itch? Yea, well i've got the itch, and i've got it bad. Its like my brain is stuck in fast-forward, and the more i dwell on thoughts of the future, the "itchier" i get. I'm wanting three things:

1) I want to get married
2) I want to build a house and
3) I want to have another baby.
And i want all these things to happen tomorrow, or at least thats how i've been feeling the last few weeks or so.

Its crazy really - each of those things are very realistically on the cards, its just that i cant shake these feelings of wanting to have it all happen tomorrow, next week, next month... not next year, or the year after that. I mean, our wedding is now only just over 4 months away ( which, in reality, is crazy/scary soon ... ) yet night after night i run through the plans in my head and secretly wish that everything was already organised and we could just say the " I do "s this weekend. After the wedding, Mick and I are planning on having another baby - and by planning i mean i've sat down and figured out how to manipulate the Pill so i have my last period right before the wedding and we can start baby-making on the honeymoon. And when we have another child, a two bedroom duplex is just not going to be enough room, so the want for another house will be more like a need. And, rather than buy an established home ( which is still a great fallback plan ) what we'd like to do is buy a block of land in a village just outside of the town we live in and build. I'm not talking anything fancy - no giant McMansion for us - just a 3 or 4 bedroom home, with built-ins and a nice big kitchen. We've even looked at the option of having a kit home/transportable home built by a local company and have found that it makes things pretty affordable for us, providing we sell the duplex before borrowing money for the build. Realistically, all this selling and borrowing and building cant happen til at least the end of this year, and all the timing becomes a bit trickier if you throw a pregnancy into the mix.

I guess what i'm saying is - who wants to give me $250 000? No, no, thats not it ( athough, if you have deep pockets... ). What i really mean is even though i have this crazy urge to have it all, and have it NOW, i also know that the more i focus on the future, the less i'm concentrating on the now. I'm living with my head in the proverbial clouds, which means i'm missing so much of whats happening down here in the real world. The real, tangible, its-happening-right-now... well... now. So - its not just me is it? Tell me i'm not the only one who is itching to get things done, and to do it all without resorting to massive credit card debt or an astronomical mortage?

9 comments:

  1. Yes and I must admit my itches are similar.
    Itch 1: make up our bloody minds about whether there will be a baby number 3
    Itch2: Get our house ready to sell
    Itch 3: Find dream house no 2 (This was dream house no 1!!)

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  2. I think we all feel that way about something every now and again. I guess I can say I have ticked those 3 things off...but there's always something on the "To Do" list or the "I want" list :)

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  3. I just blog hopped over from Lulu's...

    I have an itch - a really big one actually. It is taking up a lot of head space at the moment and that is wanting baby #2.

    Good luck with the whole house thing. We are in the middle of house hunting at the moment.

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  4. I know this feeling well! If there are big things on the horizon I end up wanting them to happen immediately and, like you, find myself not paying so much attention to the now. No real big itches for me at the moment, we have some decisions to make first, especially as to whether Baby no 2 is a possibility!

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  5. I totally get how you are feeling!The whole buying a house and when to start trying for number 2 is constantly going around in my head..I don't want to leave it 'to late' I guess. Oh and I was like that the months leading up to the day I just wanted it to hurry up so we could start the next chapter already. It won't be long and the day will be here x

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  6. A very familiar feeling! I often dither about whether I want something, but once I decide I want it, I want it NOW!
    The only thing I'm in a hurry for now is to buy a house - we have our eye on one and I just want to grab it and get into it. But we have much to do before that can happen, so am being patient. Kind of.
    We've planned to start trying for baby no.1 some time next year, and I've recently been in a bit of a hurry for that, but now that the house is on the cards I've found waiting for that particular step a bit easier - the longer I stay at work (in a job I love) the better the mortgage will be.
    And don't worry - your wedding will be upon you in a flash. And then everything else you're waiting on will follow :)

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  7. I'm terribly impatient like that too; I hate the waiting. By the time we were a few months out from our wedding, I was over the planning and just ready for it to happen already!

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  8. Oooh the itches are frustrating! I want it all and I want it now - I sound like Verucca Salt :)
    We want to move to the country... we're in planning stages. Planning stages take sooo long.

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  9. Oh man, I feel like that all the time! It was particularly bad in the months leading up to the wedding, and now it's happening with being pregnant....I just want to meet this baby already and I'm only halfway. I have to remind myself to take each day as it comes and try to enjoy and remember all these things about being pregnant. I feel a bit like I've just been rushing through life ever since we bought a house, wanting to tick all these other things off the list and have everything I want now. It's hard sometimes to stop and smell the roses and just appreciate the here and now.

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