I find it inspiring that once you have really admitted something to yourself, quite the weight is lifted. You feel so much lighter, so free of what had been weighing you down, even though you werent aware exactly what that weight was in the first place.
I dont want to delve too deeply into details here, but i have recently admitted something to myself - and to someone else - that i was only vaguely aware existed. For a long time i thought there was a possibility of something, but then dismissed any thoughts as fanciful and completely improbable. I talked myself into thinking i was ridiculous and concentrated my mind elsewhere. But when confronted with the question and knowing that i needed - that i wanted - to give a wholeheartedly honest answer, there it was. The truth.
Nothing has ever seemed sweeter rolling off my tongue..